I guess I’ll start by saying that I’m absolutely devastated by the election results. I went to bed Tuesday night with a feeling that I’ve never experienced before and can’t fully capture in words. I’m simultaneously enraged, saddened, terrified, disappointed, and disillusioned. How could this happen? What now?
I fear for the safety of my friends and family and good people across this country and the world. I am shocked to see just how many millions of U.S. citizens are comfortable electing a xenophobic, racist, sexist, homophobic man who’s endorsed by the KKK, brags about sexually assaulting women, wants to ban Muslims, and has promised to build a wall dividing the U.S. and Mexico. His rhetoric has stoked the pride of hateful white nationalists across the country, and make no mistake, we are significantly less safe because of him.
I’m confused and scared, yet empowered. I refuse, along with so many others, to let hate win. I will continue to fight for a more just world, where everyone is welcomed and safe.
Along with the fear of living in a world where trump* is the most powerful man on earth, I am deeply disappointed by Clinton’s loss. I was so excited to shatter that glass ceiling, but alas, we have a long way to go. It was extremely painful for me to wake up Wednesday morning and realize that the most qualified person to have ever run for president lost to the least qualified – a result that cannot be detached from the deep and pervasive sexism in this country. It’s a result that’s made me question my worth in this world, based entirely on my status as a woman. But again, I won’t let hate win.
I’m going to be taking a break from blogging for a while. I need to heal and keep fighting. I have to find the strength to get through my final semester of graduate school while this fear and dissatisfaction looms over me. I find so much joy in blogging, but right now that pleasure is lost. I’ll find it again – but when, I’m not sure. Maybe a few weeks, maybe six months…
In the mean time I’ll continue to stand up against hate, and I implore you to do the same.
*I refuse to capitalize his name